The lady and the time of her life

i think nothing is worst than losing someone dear to you forever.
just imagine waking up one day and find he/she not there anymore.
you cant talk to that person, you cant feel him/her, you cant hear him/her, you cant see him/her anymore.
it's scary.
tht person doesnt exist anymore.
you cant do anything to get that person back to life.
it feels so empty. empty. empty.




wenta hub and j8 for a while.
im seriously not in the mood to shop.
just wait outside the shops for them.
i end up feeling more tired, feeling down, feeling sad.
ahh.
i need some sleep.
not in the mind to think properly.

we always say we dont mind what others say but the truth is that deep inside we still do.
these are just some random thoughts.
personally, i think i have a very low self esteem.
i care a lot about what others think.
i'll try not to do things that will upset people or make them dislike me.
&& i'll always think that im not good enough in everything.
hmms.
but think again, if those people cant accept you for who you are, why bother about them?

thoughts running wild.
i need some hugs and some slp.