The lady and the time of her life

back home now.

met huihui for like half an hr for yami and chat a lil.
gonna pray for her tmr.
hmms.
hope things go well for her.

met ziting<3 to study.
she mug for her exams and i read my eat,pray, love.
felt btr today after seeing my grandma so strong~
maybe im still a lil touchy and may cry over lil things.
but im happy to have ziting's company.
just kept dozing off-.-
didnt really slp ytd.

ziting went to listen to some talk while waiting for her bf.
im a lil hungry so wenta grab a bite and walk ard for a while bfore going home.
still haven prepare for christmas yet.
cards and lil gifts?
dunno what to buy.
i think i gonna really plan properly.

thankful for buddy's company thru fone otw home.
haha.
nice singing and playing with e piano.
actually feels like crying when i heard him play.
ahh.
im fine.
it's nt tht i can do anyth.
haha.
still thot im not gonna talk to buddy after tht incident.
gah.
whatever.

hmms.
another bad news.
my bro's fren just commited suicide ytd and he just went to her funeral.
heard tht she was a very nice girl.
she was from my primary school; always offering her help to anyone who needs it.
she jumped cos she cant take e fact of being dropped to normal acad.
she is just 15.
really wish she cherished her life.
when things go really bad, u may feel like u dun wanna live anymore.
slash wrist, self mutilate and whatever.
but commit suicide?
tht's really the end.
u still have a long way to go.
a lot more obstacles and unhappy things to come on ur way.
this may not be the worst.
but she is really gone now.
my bro is doubly down now.
btr not talk to him.


life and death.
i dont know now.
i really dont know.